back to kb

after two extremely busy weeks... now im back to kb... only for a few days... Esuk, monday pagi balik g bndr again coz i have critical thinking tests (2 kinds) dat noon.... So im busy revising right now... Mcm iski ada plg.. Astae~ hehe

Anyways... Kdg2 i feel im too exposed... Yth mls plus no time to update coz busy study sj... Dats y b4 diz i feel i wna close or 'hang' my blog... P syg jua... Ngaleh2 i dsgn n work hard for it dulu... But lapas experience mcm2 wf hectic schedule n d way sm ppl react lg yg nda luas or nda jauh pemikirannya kah etc, yth bg mls kn ni... but, my blog is my blog... My space is my space... N my property is my property... i guess for now, i still keep this blog lah.. Suka wh ku warna nya merah.. haha... Moreover, yg pnting what i say in it sj yg penting2, pembuka minda, menjauhkan pemandangan etc based on my obsrvations n opunions of all interesting aspects in life.... I insist to hv a peaceful blog frm now onwards just as how it used to be dr dulu...

Another thing is dat, i wna say sorry to readers if my blog hv been very boring bebulan ani.. Nda habis2 kmu dgr aku tu stress n too much work ah? Hehe... Mun bnr pyh sj... Bnyk kli ah org complain... But if me, walaupun demanding cemana this new GN structure, i still love it... It makes ppl improve in d end... It test how well we survive n cope if schedule is extremely full n packed... N im vry happy wf my undertakings to date... Summitted semua keraja.. Not only just for d sake of answering mcm org lain... But me n geng try to 'critically' apply n think big when answering... tho, not perfect, still hv more rooms to improve...

I feel very good, happy n glad doing all this... I love improving self n gaining more knowledge...

Oh, guess apa ku kn apply next semester? Mandarin as my non-compulsory module... Tp alum confirm... Coz im thinking kn ambil some thing arah faculty of arts and social sciences jua.. anything psl 'development' or seangkatan dengannya.. Hehe.. Tp, we have one or two compulsory yg mesti pilih frm faculty of science or institut of medicine... which i duno yet kn ambil apa... Kn ambil computer jua... Semua wh kn ku ambil f buleh... Haha.. *tamak* ;p

Hmm, wat else, o yeah, nda g ku tekabir kn fwd email ni kamu.. Haha.. Batah dh nda t'fwd... P aku cek plg tu if i wana take my minds off the work sekajap while on laptop...

U all wana noe apa? all diz demanding works n busy-ness make me realize something at this moment as im typing... I feel... Im a risk taker MORE now... I feel im abt to fly high... I feel im going far... Spreading my wings wider n wider... I feel im becoming somebody 'rich' in knowledge n thinking... im sooo happy lah yg pastinya... coz d worst busiest months b4 ani brings out d best in me... N i dun fail... Im very proud i dont give up at all... Walaupun aku stress berabis, lost contact wf most ppl, but i managed to complete all my work as perfect as i can as demanded... antah lah, more den words can express ryt now, im sooooo happy n glad ;P

Semoga apa yg d lalui ini takkan menjadi sia2... Dan akan menjadi kn aku lebih hebat dari sebelum nya... N i also wish i wont forget where i came frm... Who i really am... Walaupun sudah berjaya nanti... tanpa yg telah berkoban demi hidupku, aku takkan pergi jauh begini... Thank you Allah.. Thank you Mummy... Thank you Daddy... I love u all! =')

Ada juga masa nya, kdg2 manusia lupa diri, terlalu tamak, mengajar impian dan benda2 yg tak perlu... Kdg2 ppl r just being influenced by culture, their families, friends, n surroudings regarding this matter... So, as a note to myself jua... Walauapa pun, jgn lupa diri, bersyukur apa yg ada... Buleh mengejar impian yg tinggi, tapi mesti dgn niat yg suci... Not just for d sake of being rich n living a wealthy life... But wf d excess income, we must help those ppl in need of our attention... Beside, harta benda hanyalah sementara... Always rmbr dat... :)

Anyway, antah kenapa ku ah, lately mcm rasa kn 'marry' sj.. Haha.. Panat wh... Now dont get me wrong... Bukannya 'gatal' udh... But mcm puas dh single ani ckit... Siuk jua jd mother n wife ani... But yeah, i noe d drawbacks jua... Hehehe.. I wna hv kids... Grow them up... Care for hubby n all... Be d best mummy n best wife dat i cn be... N make dem happy... Kn siuk... Hehe... okaaaaaayyyy.... sabar sj dulu... Bawa puasa... hold th dulu ah zetty... Few more years n u cn kawin... Haha... Study dulu habis kn dgree ani... Mcm beduit sj kn kawin ani... Haha... *LOL* sekadar berjenaka.. huhu~

eh kamu, mau tau apa lg? I gain weight.. 2kg! bisai udh maintain 50 hari atu lapas raya.. Naik tia sebulan ku sibuk ani... Antah ah, mcm beselera bh ku mkn.. Selalunya memilih, ani inda... Semua kn d cuba... Cali lah.. Bek th control eh... Hehe.. Nda muat krg baju... Cute krg.. haha..

I know im going through alot of changes now n this all may change some or more of my personalities n activities n thinking ckit2... So, i wna be on top... Smarter, healthier, happier, but down to earth still.. I want to hv a healthy lifestyle.. Eat healthy, try a veriety of exercise coz i wna be physically fit.. Kn jungle trekking ku lg eh... Kn swimming jua... i miss my jungle trekking alot... Nnt th, siapa kn d bawa bisai ah? Hehe...

Aku ni bnr nya gatal hati kn miss call seseorang... Tp i gotta hold... Mls ku hint... biar tia ia mau ilang 'kali'... Besides, yg penting i want evrybody to be happy... N iL be happy for evrybody... Dont need to wait for me if nda sanggup... Besides its too early to confirm... I just dont wna bagi harapan to anybody in diz world lg.. Takut ku menghampakan... Dats y im not miss calling or txting u for now... i got my family to take care for now, got studies to catch up, very busy schedule n so on... Apa2 pn yg terjadi n watevr ur decision is, iL be happy for u... N i always understnd n support u right frm the start.... Im a big girl now, know how to think, so dont worry, i wont marah or anything lyk dat... *hugs* =)

Paning kli semua ni ah wondering who am i talking abt... Hehe... Biar th paning... Dont ask me any further... Lau kna tanya, aku jawab 'ada ler~' ni ah... Hehe

Okay.. stay tune for the next exciting news frm me...

Have a wonderful weekend...
Salam~

slmt tinggal

going tru alot of mental n emotional dramas since d past one month...

and... Im thinking to close this coz im not stable at times....

good bye everyone...

;'(

the end.

Looking for a 'FishFinder'

anybody know where i can purchase a brand new or a good second-hand fishfinder? ada org mencari.. sj menulung.. hehe.. habis ku google dh pyh cari.. if anybody out there know where i can get one, leave me a msg at chatbox or comment under this post ok... TQ!

lets do it together.. yes we can!

hmm... seems to me things are still intense... see, its not just me... now do u believe me? told u ppl im not joking or exaggerating... no use of me to fake pun... kpd yg sungguh stress atu n dislike GN, bawa besabar sj k... aku pn catu jua lagi mental especially if u r a perfectionist like me... cani lah saja ah, if it meant to fail, atu nanti punya cerita tu.. yg penting, we control what we can control masa ani... take a break... enjoy th berabis.. take the crappy things or feelings out of the mind... then, lapas atu, we give our best apa yg termampu sj... push as hard selagi u dpt... push the limit further... its good jua bnr nya.. it test our ability to handle stress n how good are our management skills... once we all GNxians buat yg terbaik udh, no matter what our marks are, then its the planners job to revised where neccessary....

i admit its hell since end of october to november at present... but as of today, i am able to survive no matter how bad or 'BS' things are (quote from c miss alai tu ah) hehe....

so, my strategies to survive in GN to date are:

1. when stress is out of control berabisssssss, i take a break... n i mean a real break... when i go out, i go out and forget abt study or projects or assignments...
   
   
2. once puas hati dh relax, then, I work very hard & SMART (as much as i can pushing the limits)... but take breaks every 30 mininutes or 1hr... jgn mamajal.. yth accumulated tplg stress atu.... n then, do one thing at a time.. prioritise.. n dont waste time once ur at it... ignore all the unneccessary temptations or ajakan kawan kah apa kah... but sports is good though.... dont over-sports sj.. sakit plg krg... nda bth g exam kn...
   
   
3. dont feel so bad if marks not up to our expectations dulu since this is first intake n first semester... i know everybody wants As, Bs.. aku pn kli ah... like i say, sabar dulu... there 'should' be changes soon... but IF no changes jua, yg not up to their standards had to diverted into other direction... n dat is not for me to plan... n if teruk pn, sama2 teruk jua ni bh together... so, we are not alone =)
   
   
4. exam is coming soon, this week n coming week ani is very very very very packed especially for yg taking businesses, i duno yg lain ah.... almost everyday ada kn disubmit.... dua minggu ani... very mampus... so, take one thing at a time... do it yg termampu, den move on to next one.... lapas exam bru th enjoy berabis... sacrifice dulu sikit...
   
   
5. mkn lah secukupnya, like veggies, fruits n all that your body is lacking lah.. n drink alot of water...
   
   
6. last but not least, if ada org cari pasal, anywhere, whoever, antam tah sj.. ignore their nonsense.. biar kn dorang... they might be too free n useless rather than deciding to be productive for good... so, u know wats more important for your future, ryt? very obvious~
   

bh, i gtg now.. need to continue working on projects lg for tmrw's submission n presentation...  to those GNs yg in critical stress condition like me, try following my tips... if success, alhamdulillah.. if inda, try your own version...

ok, all the best GNs! cha yooooooooooo~

we can do it!
we can do it!
we can do it!

- Z -

lebih hebat.... in the process

salam,

hi all.. hope evrybody is doing fine.. my fever n sore throat is getting better too.. but masih ada selesma sikit.. forced myself to eat oranges few days ago msa critical sakit nya, nasib makin baik dh..

first of all, before i go any further i wana say sorry for the sadness or extreme stress that u can see in me berminggu2 dh... i would like to insist (tekankan) that what we are going through as first intake of this new thing cant be felt by previous intakes... i insist that what i go through is much more crapy n stressful BERABIS than yours... our objectives are far different... just because othesr were taught by the same lecturer, or in the same faculty, doesnt mean u feel the same stressn workload... banyak kami ani melapaui batas than yours... u didnt put yourself in our shoes... i know wats going on... even the smartest among us is going down now... even the smartest n brightest hv difficulty catching up.. apatah lagi org yg sadang2... i pity very much to those fresh from a'levels.. i hope they stay strong and can cope very well..

stress berabis mcm out of control smpai kn bunuh diri bcoz there is just too much things to do? haha.. i'm used to that for years now... iv been training myself in dealing with more stress.. but this new thing is even worse... nda guna2 aku ckp disini jua.. its more than words can express... far beyond the logic n realistic...

antah, aku pn speechless dh ni... im taking a moment now to update this... coz i hate my previous posts... i am so down... no time to rest.. tidur pn nda cukup dh ni... kerja kerja kerja... nada lain... mkn pn nda lurus dh ni gastric... udh mkn krg, smbil buat keraja lg tu rushing.. mcm kn mati wh.. hv u ever see me using extreme negative words in this blog? jarang kn? coz iv always try to control my words in all post... ani pn ku pyh2 menahan...

antah lah, all i can say for now is: hell is hell... i dont give a damn about anything lagi... i am forced and involuntarily pushed to the extreme of this course and management system... i now no longer able to control myself in public all the time...  mood swings... communication breakdown... distance felt from all my networks and families... i dun have time for everybody now.. not even one person... everything is h-e-l-l... i hate diz situation.. but there is nothing much i can do to change this.. namun, apa yg mampu i do is pray for things to get better and dont waste even one second... (yes, i mean it!) coz nada lg excess time bh ni kn relax.. mcm gila wh right now...

and... pls eat this: none of u out there can understnd what im going through.. even if your an ex-ubd student, or from another faculty, or watsoever, u WILL NOT understand our positions.. and i extremely hate it when some say that they have experience the same thing sedang kn they are not by my side to go tru the smae thing.. haha.. cali bnr tu.. bg mental ada plg..

so, for that reason, i now no longer give a damn what ppl say especially those who are not critical of their own views... i just dont argue with uncritical comments, if i do, that will make me look stupid.. and i wna be smart b4 commenting.. itulah sebabnya kenapa diam bukan sentiasa berarti bodoh or salah... most of the time, keeping quite and ignoring bullshts are the best way...

and and and.... i repeat, this is a very intense month... more than i can take... but i am NOT gona give up or go down permanently...

'sedalam2 jatuh ku, aku akan bangkit menjadi lebih hebat dari sebelumnya!'

im not gona give up! 
im not gona give up! 
im not gona give up!

i am going to be the best!!!

- Double Z -